Wednesday, March 14

august 19, 2011

baby girl,

that photo right there is from the day i found out i was pregnant with you. august 19, 2011.

so many emotions ran through me that day -- disbelief, shock, pure excitement, overwhelming sense of love and happiness. your aunt da had to bring me two more boxes of sticks to pee on...just to make sure they were all in agreement. after confirming with several sticks, we headed to the doctor's office to get the official word. after that it was time to figure out how to tell your dad.

i bought him a package of pacifiers, wrapped them up into a pretty package and put them in the console of my car. we had plans that night to go to an event in downtown rogers so giving him the present would have to wait until later that night. however, your dad is a snoop and when we went to pick up nana he looked in the console of my car and asked me about the pretty package. i told him that it was for him but he would have to wait until we got home that night to open it.

we went to 3rd friday with your nana, papa mark, auntie da and uncle ryan. we walked around and enjoyed the local artists. we ate dinner - where i turned down a beer which raised an eyebrow from everyone at the table. we listened to the live band playing. it was weird and amazing walking around knowing you were already growing inside of me. it was my little secret (well, mine and auntie da's) and i cherished that fact for the moment. it was an amazing thought to know that i would have you with me at next year's 3rd friday events.

and of course the whole night your dad kept bugging me about what was in the package. i'm pretty certain he was mainly afraid that he had forgotten some sort of occasion that warranted presents.

after the event we went home and got ready for bed. your dad excitedly brought in the package and asked if he could open it now. he was so excited to see what was in the pretty box!

he opened it...

and then he sat there confused. just staring at the tiny little pacifiers.

i told him he would be needing these in about 9 months. and he stared some more. it was a lot to take in.

after the staring came the excitement. we were beginning the last of our adventures as the two of us. in nine months we would have you, our beautiful baby girl, to join our adventures. and oh the adventures we will have, baby girl!

you have been loved since the moment i saw those pink lines and you will be loved more and more each and every day. you have already changed our world and made it a better one.

so that is the story of the day i found out you would make us a family. oh, you are wondering why am i standing there holding a happy 5 years sign? it was the 5 year wedding anniversary of a friend. why do i look so rough? well, let's just say that taking pregnancy tests while at work isn't the best idea...there was some crying involved. it's an emotional event and lord knows those hormones raging through your body produce tears like it's nobody's business.


  1. I just cried reading this post. It was such an emotional day full of fear and excitement. Im so glad that I was part of it all.. even though it was so hard to know this beautiful secret around your family. I can't wait to meet you and watch you grow into a beautiful girl.

    Auntie Da

  2. I apologize for the delayed response, but I did write down my thoughts as I read this post just over 3 weeks ago.

    Such a wonderfully emotional time. i just barely held back a tear reading this post. That's how vivid the moment was. Discovering the most important event in my entire life in a split second. Instantly feeling an overwhelming connection to something so small yet so big. an immense love for this tiny soon to be baby. I can't wait for your arrival.



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